To the boy who loves every part of me, the good and the bad, this is for you:
We're five months into our relationship. Time flies, eh? I still can't forget the first night I met you. Everything is still in deep detail embedded in my memory; the first time we kissed, the first time we held hands, the first time I looked into someone's eyes and asked myself whether that was really happening because everything seemed so surreal.
You found me at my lowest point in my life (so far, in my 18 years of existence). I thought I was a mere piece of broken glass being swept away together with dirt. I kept telling myself that I don't deserve to be loved because I can't even love nor respect myself.
But look, I was the perfect reflection of you, in every single way. Getting to know you was like looking deep into a mirror. And I liked what I saw for the first time ever. We were both fucked up for lack of better words. We weren't in the state of being ready for a relationship, but we took the risk. And I'm so glad we did.
I learned how to love myself because of you. Through you, I knew what true faith meant and how precious life is, and that there is indeed, beauty in everything that happens to us.
We don't need "outside forces" to dictate how we should handle or move in our relationship. We can fix things and grow together by ourselves. We know better and we promised to each other that we will always choose to be the better people.
It's just that, older and supposedly "wiser" people always look down our relationship. Just because we're "still young", and how many things we still need to discover about people and the world and all those other irrelevant shit about life . Blah blah blah. They have a point.
Come on. Are people still that old-fashioned? Do I/we really need to be with multiple partners just to learn? Is it so wrong to hope for the best, that you will be my first and my last? Being with you is enough. Though my heart does broken because of you every once in a while, you never fail to fix it. You give me headaches but you magically turn things around and make everything okay again. Like I said, being with you gives me so much knowledge in terms of how to love and respect someone and, well, myself.
Baby, you are enough. Don't ever think of yourself as someone who isn't deserving of anything nice in this world because you do. If not, you deserve the best. We all do.
If I'm a handful, I'm sorry. It's probably my PMS.
You know me better than anyone.
I can't even lie to you because, well, even when I do, you know.
Here's to our love, which I hope, we will bring to our future home, our dream studios, and eventually to our graves. HAHA overly attached girlfriend alert, but you know what I mean.
I love you.
No, I love you too much. *creeper*
Heh. I know you love me too. :> HAHAHA loljk I love you baby :*
P.S.: I like flowers now. I think they're pretty. And romantic. Hehehehe. Just not chocolates because they're gonna make me fat. :3
